She wasn't sure what she had expected. But that most certainly had not been this. So far, she had really been in control. She had thought about this date so much and prepared herself so well to make sure he wouldn't let his misconception on "what's right" for her get in the way of their feelings. And it had gone beyond even her wildest expectations.
But now? She had lost control over everything. In spite of her posturing as more mature and knowledgeable than she was, it was now revealed that at the end of the day... She knew nothing. Only what she'd read, what she'd imagined and dreamed of. She had zero experience. ]
I-I... [She looked at him with confusion before looking to the side.] Ahaha... I'm really just all talk, huh?
[ And yet... While her old self would have probably found this scary? She found it oh-so enticing. Oh-so intoxicating and wonderful? For him to hold her like that, with strength and passion, to pull her so close and push his lips against her... ]
What does it say about me... That I wish we would keep practicing?
[He wasn't unaffected. Even with a wealth of experience, for better or worse, there was still something different about closing that particular gap with someone he'd grown familiar with and fond of. Monika had been different in incalculable degrees but in every way that was lovely, she was very familiar. She paid him so much focus that she'd grown used to his littlest affectations and become accustomed to navigating them but there were still a number of cues he hadn't shown her, not because he didn't want to, but because there was ever that 'time and place' to consider.
As much as he liked to pretend to be overly flirtatious, it was patently untrue that he genuinely was. With every intent to appreciate the doe-like expression left behind he parted from her and allowed her that time to process the warmth in his eyes and, though fading with distance, on his lips. Even if it was the most disappointing kiss, he knew it was unforgettable--at least for the moment. The right attitude would be to erase and replace it with something even more unforgettable but... they were out on a public sidewalk. They could revisit that torture later.]
I'd say... one kiss is fine when you're out shopping. Two or more kisses and it'll get dangerous~. Now--come on and let's keep going so I can drag you along while you're all dreamy-eyed.
[ Sniff. Crushing her dreams like that. What a truly cruel man! ]
Awww, alright.
[ She leaned against his side and resumed their walk, though she was in a positively brighter and more dreamy mood than she had been mere moments ago. ]
You know, I don't mind if everyone knows I'm your girlfriend. [She put a finger against her lips.] In fact, I think I would rather like it.
[ Though besides holding hands, there aren't many ways to make that public knowledge... Well, rings serve that purpose but that's just too early for that! And they're really discreet things. Surely there are better things to do that... ]
My, my, you're becoming rather brazen, aren't you?
[Chiding her gently and, really, without any intent to make her stop, Kisuke turned his wrist just so slightly so he could meaningfully run his thumb over the inside of her palm while they were on their stroll.]
I'm of the same opinion, Monika, but there's something to be said about subtlety, isn't there?
[So, while she had her moment to think about the sweeter forms of declaring that transition between them, he was more than eager to distract with teasing that could stay well-hidden enough.]
[ Subtly... She was plenty subtle usually! But maybe the sheer euphoria of the moment was getting to her. Could you get drunk on love? It certainly felt like it. She smiled brightly as he spoke, closing her hand more tightly as she felt his thumb running against her palm. ]
Mhm, that's true.
[ She struggled real hard not to lean against him. Honestly... The entire time he'd spoken of himself as if he would be a bad influence on her. But it really felt like she was the one being a bad influence here! ]
You know, you made it sound like you'd be an unrestrained monster or whatnot... [She leaned to the side a bit.] But looks like I'm the one who needs to show restrain here, ahaha!
[He could hardly chide her over her attempts. Despite her desperate situation, Monika had never once tried to corner him in a way he wouldn't be able to come back from--finding it exceedingly charming that she would be so considerate with him.
Despite all rationale, he found it endearing when she seemed to hold back and wonder if she was pressing too much. If only she'd ignore that instinct once in a while?
Squeezing her hand gently, he let just about wrote it down for her to remember.]
As fun as restraints can be, you realize that it's unhealthy to hold yourself back as often as you do, right?
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Date: 2023-07-10 11:40 pm (UTC)She wasn't sure what she had expected. But that most certainly had not been this. So far, she had really been in control. She had thought about this date so much and prepared herself so well to make sure he wouldn't let his misconception on "what's right" for her get in the way of their feelings. And it had gone beyond even her wildest expectations.
But now? She had lost control over everything. In spite of her posturing as more mature and knowledgeable than she was, it was now revealed that at the end of the day... She knew nothing. Only what she'd read, what she'd imagined and dreamed of. She had zero experience. ]
I-I... [She looked at him with confusion before looking to the side.] Ahaha... I'm really just all talk, huh?
[ And yet... While her old self would have probably found this scary? She found it oh-so enticing. Oh-so intoxicating and wonderful? For him to hold her like that, with strength and passion, to pull her so close and push his lips against her... ]
What does it say about me... That I wish we would keep practicing?
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Date: 2023-07-17 08:45 pm (UTC)As much as he liked to pretend to be overly flirtatious, it was patently untrue that he genuinely was. With every intent to appreciate the doe-like expression left behind he parted from her and allowed her that time to process the warmth in his eyes and, though fading with distance, on his lips. Even if it was the most disappointing kiss, he knew it was unforgettable--at least for the moment. The right attitude would be to erase and replace it with something even more unforgettable but... they were out on a public sidewalk. They could revisit that torture later.]
I'd say... one kiss is fine when you're out shopping. Two or more kisses and it'll get dangerous~. Now--come on and let's keep going so I can drag you along while you're all dreamy-eyed.
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Date: 2023-07-26 12:28 pm (UTC)Awww, alright.
[ She leaned against his side and resumed their walk, though she was in a positively brighter and more dreamy mood than she had been mere moments ago. ]
You know, I don't mind if everyone knows I'm your girlfriend. [She put a finger against her lips.] In fact, I think I would rather like it.
[ Though besides holding hands, there aren't many ways to make that public knowledge... Well, rings serve that purpose but that's just too early for that! And they're really discreet things. Surely there are better things to do that... ]
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Date: 2023-07-30 07:30 pm (UTC)[Chiding her gently and, really, without any intent to make her stop, Kisuke turned his wrist just so slightly so he could meaningfully run his thumb over the inside of her palm while they were on their stroll.]
I'm of the same opinion, Monika, but there's something to be said about subtlety, isn't there?
[So, while she had her moment to think about the sweeter forms of declaring that transition between them, he was more than eager to distract with teasing that could stay well-hidden enough.]
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Date: 2023-08-06 10:59 pm (UTC)Mhm, that's true.
[ She struggled real hard not to lean against him. Honestly... The entire time he'd spoken of himself as if he would be a bad influence on her. But it really felt like she was the one being a bad influence here! ]
You know, you made it sound like you'd be an unrestrained monster or whatnot... [She leaned to the side a bit.] But looks like I'm the one who needs to show restrain here, ahaha!
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Date: 2023-08-09 11:26 pm (UTC)[He could hardly chide her over her attempts. Despite her desperate situation, Monika had never once tried to corner him in a way he wouldn't be able to come back from--finding it exceedingly charming that she would be so considerate with him.
Despite all rationale, he found it endearing when she seemed to hold back and wonder if she was pressing too much. If only she'd ignore that instinct once in a while?
Squeezing her hand gently, he let just about wrote it down for her to remember.]
As fun as restraints can be, you realize that it's unhealthy to hold yourself back as often as you do, right?